And now I am confused. All I asked was for him to hold me... comfort me. It lasted all of two minutes. Then he said he needed to finish what he was doing on his website. I felt like I was coming in second. Apparently I wasn't supposed to feel that way. I am just supposed to understand and be happy because "it could be a lot worse." Yeah... I'm sure it could. Yet I am supposed to understand everything he does, and it is acceptable for him not to understand when I need something. He said it was the difference between men and women. Well, yeah, there is a difference between men and women. I think women accept that better than men do. Men expect women to just magically understand them, yet they don't really take the time to understand us.

I think I very clearly explained my self tonight to him. I needed someone to comfort me. And not just anyone... him. It did no good. His website was more important than how I felt. I don't bitch when he works late and then comes home and immediatly get on the computer and then stays there all night. I don't complain that all I ever see is the back of his head. But when I need something... it's not there.